I recently started walking again. I mean the kind of walking I did in the beginning that you can read about in my very first post, The First Walk. The kind of “crying it out in the streets with God” walking.
I don’t know why I kept putting it off. Some of it is probably because of the anger I still held onto and some of it is simply I wasn’t ready to be completely emptied and broken down so that the Lord could fully fill me up with more of Him. I wanted to be filled but I wasn’t ready for all the emotions that I knew would go along with getting there. All the crying that I knew I would do and all the heartache that would have to be addressed. In some strange way I still wanted to hang onto the brokenness for myself and
I knew what walking would mean for me.
It would mean complete surrender again as I handed Him my brokenness. It would mean more pain in the beginning in order to work our way to the beauty of it all. It would mean laying it all out there and feeling drained afterwards. It would mean more than I thought I was ready for.
But that first walk again was everything it was the first time I did it and more.
The Lord met me out there on my walk just as He always has. Just as He did the very first time He pulled me outside to walk and talk with Him.
He met me in my pain. He met me in my sorrow. He met me in my anger and my grief. He met me in those streets with tears streaming down my face.
He met me there and He comforted me. He filled me up with just what I needed. He whispered His plans for me. He renewed my spirit. He showered me with love and reminded me yet again that He was all I would ever need!
Yesterday as I walked again, I simply prayed that He would give me what I needed for that day and I told Him I’d be back the next day to ask again. That’s what He wants from us, to come to Him daily; to be dependent on Him daily so that we can continue to grow. I thanked Him for all He has done and all He has brought me through. I thanked Him for His faithfulness.
Sometimes the Lord has to break us down to build us up and prepare us for what’s ahead.
We need to be beautifully broken before the Lord. He will use the brokenness in our lives to draw us nearer to Him. Once we are broken before Him, He can put us back together the way He sees fit. Then we can be beautifully restored through Him but first we have to trust Him with our brokenness.
He will meet you wherever you are today! He will come to you just as the scripture says He will!
Let’s take that first step again! Whatever that looks like for you, just do it! It may be walking outside like it is for me. It may be driving around aimlessly while talking it out with the Lord. It may be going into your bedroom and shutting the door and crying it out with our Savior!
Let’s be beautifully broken before Him!
We ask so much of Him but are we willing to be who He needs us to be, and go through what He needs us to go through, in order to receive those things we ask of Him? Share on XI will be praying that we are willing as I walk and talk with Him today.
Blessings,
